Brujo's Open Heart Brujo, I was reluctant to admit it, but until Dancer_of_god's post I now do admit your Post also got my optical faucets turned on. Much of what you said about false friends, your insecurities and your wanting to find one to love, I personally went through some of these experiences; twice over the breakup of my only love, brought me to the very brink of suicide at the age of 29. If I had, all my grandchildren would not have been born and all 30 books never published and all my 25 musical compositions would never have been contributed to posterity. Even the most painful experiences slowly weaken with time. September 4, 2004 I lost my dog, Cody after 13 years, and I still cry over losing her, but each day a little less. But what I really wanted to communicate to you, is that you have a wonderful gift, of expressing your inner feelings so clearly with that magic of eliciting and awakening our pathos with few words, and that is the very basis of a good author. All of us who read your post, I'm certain had their heart strings plucked. Thank you for an emotional education on life's trials and tribulations. Black Sheep, 'Today's tragedies are often tomorrow's blessings in disguise', Joe Lanza 2003 a.d.