What she said. I suspect you were doing better than you thought, but the anxiety kept you from feeling and trusting the connection. I think it's great you stuck it out despite your frustration. The lady you were finally paired with was there to help, and it sounds like she was happy to do so. Don't beat yourself up about it. You tried, didn't run away, and probably learned something even if you can't access it right now. The slower approach probably is better for you, but I think it's OK to stretch every once in a while like this. I think this account shows progress!