change is fun. change also leads to losses. change makes your more soulful while making you a bit heartless. change adds so much to life, while stealing away old gifts that you cherished for long. if you embrace change, be willing lose some, and hope and try to gain far more.
IME, grieving can feel like you're dying along with the object of your grief, but one doesn't... as long as you release every drop of it, you make it to the other side and there is only emptiness, into which you can fill all manner of joy.
and then, change can also be like decluttering, emptying out all the way down to only what's essential & beloved in your life... i used to help people declutter, and i know that if they don't do it quickly enuf, they start to get bogged down and overwhelmed. it sure does help to just make the decision & go for it, like ripping off a bandaid without thinking too much about it along the way!