flying_backwards
Well-Known Member
A couple days ago I saw a few seconds of my dancing on a video of a lesson where, for the first time, I liked what I saw. The first viewing I actually choked up and started crying. Luckily nobody was around! The video was only intended as notes from the lesson and I was doing some actions completely new to me. I did not expect it to look good at all. But there it is, me. I cannot believe that's me in the video. It does not look like my dancing. If I had just seen it and not known it was me I would not recognize myself. I was crying because I suddenly realized I had given up hope, did not expect to actually ever look like that, like a "real" standard lady. It did feel amazing at the time but lots of videos before when it felt great it looked awful.
And, back to reality, there is also me dancing solo in that same video and that part really does look like my dancing, plain and awkward. But that glimpse of what is possible has restored hope.
And, back to reality, there is also me dancing solo in that same video and that part really does look like my dancing, plain and awkward. But that glimpse of what is possible has restored hope.