Another glorious lesson yesterday in silver smooth. Pro & I have been smiling and laughing and high-fiving each other during lessons more than we've done in a long, loooong time. It feels like certain things are finally starting to "stick," because they happen even when I don't give them any conscious thought (not 100% consistently, of course, but more often than not). And other things, which are brand-new to me, turn out NOT to be truly brand-new, because my body automatically applies concepts it already learned, and suddenly I realize - BOOM! - I've just executed something the way Pro wanted me to, without him ever having to explain it.
Also, our lessons feel more efficient and productive, because he is able now to give me much shorter explanations/instructions/corrections. Once upon a time, if he said something like, "toe more in," it would take ten minutes for him to explain, demonstrate, and manually adjust my position (22,000,000 times) so I could feel what he meant, and I'd usually STILL not get it right (or even close) afterwards.
I have a vague sense that my lessons were not much fun for a period of several months earlier this year...but I don't remember why. Or, that is, I know the "official" reasons: struggling with my first attempt at silver smooth performance in the April minimatch that went very badly; stopping smooth and then struggling with the showcase performance that ended up being unrewarding; and, of course, juggling two teachers with two different styles and approaches to learning.
But I don't remember what that absence of joy FELT like - and I'm glad! Whatever residual not-good feeling might have been lingering around has been cleanly washed out to sea (on the irresistible tides of sophophilia and philomathy). Good riddance.
I love learning like this. I love lessons when we aren't pushing towards any type of deadline or benchmark or judgment. In every lesson, there is SOME new thing - even if just a very tiny thing - that works better than it did the last time. There is SOME new nuance or new layer that (a) I'm able to execute more readily, (b) makes a huge difference in the way I'm moving and thus the way he's partnering, and (c) makes us grin and high-five each other (and occasionally, one of us might or might not be seen also jumping up and down and clapping their hands foolishly [hint: not him]).
And each tiny little "nuance nugget" feels like a discovered treasure to cherish and explore...and we have time to do that, because there's no deadline!
#giddy