joy
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Yes that's how I felt at my last comp. The top 3 were beyond me, and some of them were competing Gold.Plus “last” in a very small field sometimes means losing to two people also competing and placing well in gold which I refuse to let bother me overly much.
In Bronze, I consistently placed well, even in a big comp. In my first Comp as Silver, I won a championship (just barely).
So it was a surprise to both me and my Pro that I placed so badly in the last comp (which was a big comp).
Honestly, I think it's good. The expectations were so high on me, it feels in a way very free-ing.
Like look, Joy can suck too!
And I remember someone on DF, I think maybe Cal. She said maybe you won't do well and some people will judge you, but so what. (I don't remember her exact words). And I'm like, yeah, I probably did get judged and probably some people were a little happy that I didn't do well. But so what.
Who cares what people think?
What matters is what I think, and what my Pro thinks.
I didn't like the experience of losing, but I really liked what I learnt from it.
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